Relief

You’re an absolute piece of shit and I have forgiven you far more than I should have ever done. Seriously, you’re abusive. Yes, I know what this word means to you and I hope you understand that yes, you are. I have never deserved the name calling or mind games, and you were never worth any tears that I gave you. Fuck you.

I just went to start a post but now must away! There is trouble afoot.

Tear.

Fuck. So I really like you still I guess. Even after all the silliness, the leading me on, the not being able to FUCKING spell my name correctly, and the shitty way you seem to have handled things... I still want you. And yes, I am having my first cry over you.... fucking MONTHS later because I'm a misplaced feelings sort of idiot. I waited, ya know.

I love your fucking smile.

And it starts...

Exam time! I'll be working my butt off in the library and killing myself over school... but it's okay! It won't be long before it's Xmas break time. :) Speaking of which... Xmas party tonight @ Van Gogh's! :D I've got my dancing shoes on... damn you Paul for not coming!

Ugh. You're full of shit. You're full of shit and everyone's shitty and I just fall for it. What the hell.

Thank-you

Thanks a lot Mr. Hoon. I sort of forgot how you inspired me and made me feel better. I really shouldn't have.

Frustration builds... get a life!

I love you both, but you have your flaws and they are currently annoying the absolute fuck out of me.

To #1: Stop faking it.
To #2: Stop being so critical and bull-headed, especially when you'll do the same things if it's convenient. Hypocrite.