C-R-A-Z-Y

I am going nuts!!! I can't kep my damn life straight today. Ugh...

Cleaning out my closet

I found some food porn kicking around on my computer:






Hopefully this frustrates the hell out of Joey and he's checking this out around lunchtime at work. Haha, much love darling. <3

So apparently I am probably done working at C-House. I am really sad about this because I work hard and unfortunately I don't think that it is paying off.

Damn, just when things were starting to take shape everything went teh suck.

Let's just go ahead and analyze why this sort of crap happens:

1. Person gets job.
2. Person works hard at job, boss is indifferent
3. Person fucks up/has a bad day/gets caught at an instant that they are not at their absolute finest
4. Person is downgraded and is either fired or has to start from square one.

NOT FUCKING COOL.

There's this thing that's looming and it's called SERIOUS FUCKING DEBT. I can't afford my July rent and I think that there has been a wrench thrown into my plans for paying for school in September. A.k.a. I am never going to see my boyfriend because I am going to be stuck working all the time and still may not be able to have a decent amount of money for paying bills, loans, etc.

Oh yeah, and having fun.

Whine, whine, whine.

So I guess the next thing to do is look for a job and enjoy the time I currently have off. And study.

Fuck my life.

Good for you.

You know, I always thought that I'd be the one that left everyone. Sitting on the other side it doesn't feel so good. :'( Just 1 more year till freedom. C'mon...

Today is the beginning of my life...

Best non-wedding day ever. <3>

I love the nightlife, I like to boogie

I wanna dance, dance, dance! 

No really... I'm so dance-y it's crazy. Joey went to see the Rackula/Metallama show tonight, but I was less than enthused. SOOOOO, instead I stayed home and studied and watched the season finale of Grey's. Yay. Whatever, I don't have money to be going to shows anyhow. 

I had a bit of time today where I felt really claustrophobic. I think it's partly because I have NO money and I have all these things that I want to do and I can't. :( Even more annoying is the fact that I have all this TIME. AHHHHHHHHHHH! My biggest problem is that I never have enough time for everyone/everything and me. So yeah, road trips, bartending school and all-around fun can't happen no mo'. Lames. Shifts better pick up or else I'm sunk. 

That's okay though. It's 2009 and things need to be awesome, just because I said so! Today was so absolutely beautiful. I went to the library to get a new book ("Eat, Pray, Love") and the sun was shining. I wore my foofy black skirt and everything was great. Someone even complimented me on it in a non-hitting-on-me sort of way. I like the non-creepies. 

Off to read my boooook! Cheers! 

Polina-lina left for Israel today. Mariska Hargate and such and such. 

I am BROKE! Work is giving me the 2-shift-a-week special and I still have so much to pay for my MC. I need to send my rent and the money from the Bell bill that I owe Emma tomorrow in the mail. I work tomorrow and Saturday... so hopefully I will make some moolah! 

Tomorrow my list is as follows: 

-call CP to come pick up my crap. :D 

-mail rent

-mail money to Emma 

-finish all chemistry homework questions

-finish fixing all 3 physics tests

-finish 3 physics subject tests

-online physics class

-online chemistry class

-all chemistry review homework

-verbal reasoning preview homework

-see Nat (1 pm)

-work 9-close 

Tomorrow should be busy! 

Vegan Brunch is out... I want it so bad I can taste it, haha. 

-xo S